My name is: Marti Ann

Hi. Let me introduce myself. My real name is Marti Ann Scarborough. I'm also known as Martini, Wal-Marti, Marti Farty Hicky Dicky, Martian, Hot Flight Nurse (former), slut (reformed), diseased nasty whore (not diseased or nasty and also reformed), bitch and crazy bitch. My favorite name is from my husband, Perry (or Peebs). He calls me his beautiful angel. I'll discuss most of these names and how they came about in this blog and possibly more. Before I get too far into the blog, let me warn you of two things. I am more of a math and science type, not a history or English type. Therefore, if bad grammar and incorrect punctuation bother you - stop reading now! The 2nd thing is I am a Christian and believe in God without a doubt, but I do have a potty mouth at times. I also don't think the answer to treating depression and other mental health disorders is just to pray more. Do I believe in miracles? YES! In my experience, when I give everything to God, it does help me cope and feel better, but I do this in conjunction with my therapy sessions and medication.

I am a wife, and a mother of two boys that are both in their mid 20's. I have been a registered nurse for 30 years although I have not worked in the past year due to health issues. I have one brother and one sister. I recently found out I have several half siblings. Both of my parents are still alive, if you go by the parents listed on my birth certificate. Of course, my birth certificate has changed a couple of times. I was born April 8, 1970 to Tony and Bernice (Joy) Hays. Now, my blog is named "Don't Hide Your Crazy", because all of my life, we didn't talk about anything that brought up any bad feelings or anything taboo. The ONLY thing I was ever told about my biological father was the judge that removed us from his custody and placed my sister and I with my grandparents, Samuel and Clara Bell Hosmer, said he wouldn't be worth the gun powder it would take to blow him up. My grandparents had custody of me from the time I was about six months old until I was around 5 years old. At that time, my mom had met and married Alex Hicks. They fought my grandparents for custody as I understand it and got my sister and I back. My mom stayed married to Alex until I was maybe 14. I'm unsure of the age. Alex was in the Army and was on active duty for several years stationed in Panama. I really have no idea when they actually separated or divorced because, once again, we didn't talk about bad things....we just smiled and carried on.

Several people told me I should write a book about my life and life experiences. I think it's because you can't write fiction as crazy as some of my life. I first introduced myself as Marti Ann Scarborough. I guess technically it is Marti Ann Hays Hosmer Hicks Scarborough. Not only am I a wife, mother, daughter, sibling, nurse, friend, etc..... I am a mental health patient that attempted suicide in July of 2012. I am strong, determined, unbreakable, healing, and a survivor.